It has been two years since a deer friend has ended his life. 2015 has been a different year than anyone has expected it to be. I still get blacked out drunk to drown out the misery of friends being killed at home and overseas. I tried to go to the VA and get help but it didn't help I wish It did to stop living thsi nightmare that wakes everytime i close my eyes. My friend told me writing a blog would help out my PTSD by expressing my depest memories but it seems like its just making me remembering dark memories which make the feel like shit
Lemon Zestors
Saturday, February 11, 2017
The Post army life
I won't lie I just deleted a section about my friend killing himself and I could of prevented it. A good friend named Gil that got drunk and used an airsoft can upside down to get high and killed himself. The night started with Wilson and myself watching a new Netflix show and when I heard a knock on the front door it was Gill pretty drunk, looking for someone to drink with him. I told him I'm going to bed even tho I knew that I was staying up all night because I couldn't sleep anymore. He ended up killing him self that night which killed me a little inside. I would love to skip forward to the current time like most stories do these days but after the day he killed himself I have been contemplating killing myself because I'm not worthy on living if I couldn't help out a dear friend in his time of need.
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